After my date with Roger last night, I am feeling even more confused. I think I actually like him. This is exactly what I didn't want to happen. I like being neutral because it makes it easier to casually date more than one person without feeling weird or guilty. Casual. That's how I'm trying to keep it, for now.
Although he is thin, his rock hard body looked nice in his outfit last night. He assured me he was going to wear something 'cute' and I think he delivered in some kind of gray v neck t shirt and black sweater with jeans. I liked it. He told me he liked my sweater too, and that it looked like a tablecloth. We drove to this place I've been wanting to try near my apartment called The Beetle, which is basically a dark, cozy bar with good food. And, of course, in that 5 min car ride, something broke! Something with the clutch. Every time people! Anyway we are having drinks and a late dinner by candlelight, and during this 2 + hours I learn so much more about him. And it makes me understand him and the way he is so much more and I'm just touched. I feel like I can't really share here because its so personal, not for me, but for him. He's one of those kids that basically had to raise himself and didn't receive a lot of support in his life, but he came out of it this great person. And we will leave it at that.
His honesty and the way he never hides what he's feeling is so tender to me. I can't explain it, but he's just this very unique individual who marches to the beat of his own drum and at the same time is so caring, romantic, gentlemanly and respectful. And all he wants to do is be with me. And I don't know! On paper, it's not good. But in person, I feel so at ease and can really be myself. He says I'm a huge dork but in the most adorable way possible. I like that. Well I suppose the journey is not over then, right?
I have another date tomorrow with this other guy I've been out with. And tomorrow I will tell you all about him! So keep reading! Please subscribe so you can be alerted when new blogs are up. You can do so anonymously or let me know who you are. Thanks!
What is bad about him on paper? I don't think living with your parents in order to pursue your true passions is a bad thing. If he was still living there, avoiding growing up and playing video games all day, that's another thing! If you like him and the way he treats you, that's all that matters. You go girl!
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Dude, after so few dates, you can ONLY be casual. Cool your heels.
ReplyDeleteOh gosh, I sound like a crazy loser don't I? I'm not like in gf mode, I'm just saying I didn't want to like him but I think I do. And I think he thinks I'm not seeing other people because he's not.
ReplyDeletePlus, I think it seems more intense just because he's intense. I'm still continuing to date other people, Princess, and I like all parties involved. I've just gotten to know this one more than the others. CP, you are right, and I respect all teachers immensely. I suppose I'm a little shallow, but I worry about financial stability. Yes, I know we are just dating (casually!) but in thinking of the future, I have a wish list. I may not get everything on that wish list, but somewhere on there is being "comfortable". However, that's a want not a need so we'll see.
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ReplyDeleteYou shouldn't be buying rounds, what a loser.
ReplyDeleteI'm assuming you're referring to "wine guy". Yeah, I agree. Especially because he told me he was going to buy me dinner after canceling our last date and even after I told him I couldn't get a cab and was walking, he didn't jump in his car to come get me.
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